"Do you want to lose weight?"
"No. I've given up caring."
"Then, why did you call about this program?"
"I don't know. Maybe it will rub off on me and I will magically lose weight."
I didn't believe I was a "binge" personality, but I called anyway to ask about the study at Stanford University Medical Center. After a four hour interview with many questions and some testing I was accepted into the study. I begin next Tuesday.
I realize it must be my evening munching on "goodies" that qualified me as a binge eater. I was in denial because if I eat too much, my stomach pays me back with pain and suffering. So, I considered myself to be a "cautious" over eater. In some ways I am still in denial. It's not like I ate huge mounds of food. That's a fallacy that many people believe about those who are overweight. My problem was the high calorie density of the food I call goodies. And it is my lack of aerobic exercise that keeps my weight stable. Overweight but stable while climbing and falling the same ten pounds.
(Why I don't get enough exercise is another story)
Since I had a sudden gain over the holidays, and several days of my stomach getting even, I attempted to keep track of my intake. I threw away my goodies, and decided to just eat my healthier foods. Yet, I've been struggling. Is it habit that I spend my evenings craving food? I feel so hungry, even if I have eaten three meals plus snack per day. Is it that I want to feel that full stomach feeling? Is it a way to bury my stress? Habit... Hunger... bury stress... Maybe all three
Here's the recipe for tonight's binge:
272 calories 17 grams protein
1 ½ cup SPRING MIX BABY LETTUCE - 10 calories, 1 gram protein
1 cup BABY SPINACH - 7 calories, 1 gram protein
½ cup chopped CELERY - 7 calories .35 gram protein
½ cup sliced & peeled ENGLISH CUCUMBER, - 8 calories .34 gram protein
½ cup shredded CARROT - 25 calories .5 gram protein
1 medium, chopped APPLE - 35 calories 1 gram protein
½ cup TOMATO slices 20 calories 0 gram protein
½ cup KNUDSEN FAT FREE COTTAGE CHEESE 80 calories - 13 gram protein
2 Tbsp LITEHOUSE YOGURT BLEU CHEESE DRESSING 80 calories 1 gram protein
fresh LEMON JUICE to taste
I add water to the dressing so it will cover my salad more evenly and mix in with the cottage cheese.
It takes me about an hour to eat all this.
I'm not advertising the brand name products. They just happen to be what I use. Sure do like that salad dressing, though.
I prefer English Cucumbers because they taste better, keep their freshness longer and my tummy likes them better.
This is what Wikipedia has to say about English Cucumbers:
English cucumbers can grow as long as 2 feet. They are nearly seedless, have a delicate skin which is pleasant to eat, and are sometimes marketed as “Burpless”, because the seeds and skin of other varieties of cucumbers are said to give some people gas. Most commonly grown in greenhouses, these parthenocarpic cucumbers are often found in grocery markets shrink-wrapped in plastic.